My Trip to Europe

Well my trip to Europe was a last minute decision. I went to visit my friend in London, unbeknowen to her I was going to be there for her. It was a trip I won't ever forget as it ended our friendship. I had so many good intensions and it turned into a real sad ending. I guess I didn't really know my best friend in the world until now, knowing a woman for 14yrs and 10yrs of those yrs spent in London. I needed to be there for her as she was going thru a bad time, but I guess I made the wrong decision. I would drop everything to be there for my friends and now I wish I hadn't gone....I ruined our long time friendship of 14yrs by going to her. I wish I had made a difference in her life, but I made things worse. I constantly go over in my mind, if I hadn't gone, we'd still be best friends, or maybe I did make a difference in her life and maybe she took heed of my words, I will never know as I left London not talking to her. I blame myself for what has happened, I approached the situation not knowing what I was getting into....hey what do I know, I'm no social worker or psychologist, just a friend, well I thought, who needed me and I guess she didn't. I owe her so much !! She had gone out of her way to encourage me to meet friends over there and all I wanted was to be with her. We travelled to see my son in Cheshire and I can't thank her enuf for organising that, then we drove thru to Glasgow to meet a friend that was here in NZ earlier this year, someone that means the world to me and is very special to me. I will never forget what she did to make this happen.... !!! But that was not my purpose to go to London, my soul purpose was to be there for her and it turned out she was there for me !! How is that fair...it isn't fair !! If I could turn the clock back I would, and change what has happened and make it right......for what its worth Jen, I pray you find the help u need to continue ur life on this earth and not end it at such a young age. You are young and have the world at ur feet !! When u are ready I'll alwayz be here for u !!


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